It's getting good...

Is it strange that I feel a kind of giddy excitement about going on to 2nd year?  It's like finally! This is being said after 2 straight hours of focusing on finishing my final exam.  I'm excited to be writing on here again, though inspiration has begun to leave me after staring at papers.  I've been thinking about where my life is going to go this next year.  My thought as I've been working today has been, what do I really want to go for?  How do I go into 2nd year without a strong goal to work toward?  Anything less is doing myself a disservice.  I know 2nd year has such powerful potential. Then, honestly, there is this part of myself that is questioning what I thought I wanted.  I know there are things that are important to me, like travel.  I also know that travel can be an escape for me (that doesn't really work).  So, I am left wondering what really is important to me? What is my heart's true desire?  What will bring me true and lasting joy and happiness?  I can make up all sorts of nice sounding answers to that, but I'm done with stories now.  My little mind doesn't have the answer.  I'm ready to ask the big Mind, and I think I just may be ready to do what is requested. ...deep breath...