In a Starbucks at 10 at night...

I find myself sitting in a Starbucks feeling so compelled to write. I've been working on my final exam, reading about the Law of Manifestation, and I found myself thinking about the life I desire to have. The images are like pieces of a puzzle floating in my head, and I don't quite see yet how they fit together. I can barely even see the big picture. How do you put it out there and ask for something that you can't even really grasp? I look at my life right now and it almost makes me want to cry. Everything is almost good. Everything is waiting on something, waiting for my life to really begin. I guess the truth is I've settled. I've settled for what was comfortable for me. I have a comfortable romantic relationship. I have a fairly comfortable job (I almost laugh to say that, but it is at least familiar and I know what to expect). It does challenge me in some ways, yet I know that I have not been living up to my full potential. I have a comfortable living situation, and I've managed to create a financial situation that has lulled me into thinking I have no choice but to stay where I am. It seems sometimes that what I read is so at odds with what I feel to be true in my life. Looking at this next year at school, there is some fear about not being able to make it, about having to re-create another year, yet it is not exactly what it seems to be. I fear it more because it would mean my life still wouldn't have started. Still waiting...