One moment of a day

Ever find yourself pausing for a suspended moment where it doesn't matter what came before or what's coming after?  It's like, this is my life in clear truth.  In all honesty, it isn't as bad as I might sometimes think it is.  It's not about the money or the unfulfilling job.  I am beyond grateful to have at least one person in my life that when I look at them, I just see love looking back.  I am so grateful to have a whole community around me that loves and supports me.  This love looking back at me is a sign to me of how I am beginning to love myself.  Looking back on myself, it's crazy to see the silly things I've told myself and even believed.  I am being birthed anew.  There is fear about letting go of the past, or believing that everything will be alright in the future.   Yet, trying to go back to the way things were doesn't feel good anymore.  It's like while releasing weight, you find yourself between pants sizes.  Nothing quite fits...yet.